Snow On May 5th

And it is still snowing as I post this... Unbelievable. My smartypants husband brings up the Native American Legend about the crows: This makes only 3 more snows until Spring.

I have had a heavy heart for over a week now... my oldest son is going through hard times and I don't know how to help him. I have always thought as a Mom I am obligated (not to mention hugely burdened because of the love in my heart) to do whatever is necessary to keep my kids, young and old from making huge mistakes or straying from their faith... whether they like it or not. This is not to say I do not let my kids make their mistakes and live with the consequences... I am talking here about BIG, LIFE CHANGING things...

And though I feel strongly that I should butt in and point out the Godly direction here and there, I have done a poor job of it. I have a natural aversion to confrontation, I am not good at it, and I am so afraid I will make people mad at me. So, I have said nothing when I probably should have said something and now I don't know what to say... I have unwittingly let my kids think I know nothing about "real" life. They have apparently come to think sin has never crouched at my door, so I would not have any idea what to do when things go south...
I am here to tell everyone that I, too, have made HUGE mistakes... I have lied, drank too much, partied to excess, lived like there was no God and done way more unGodly things than I am going to talk about here... I, too, have hated my life and wished I was either a million miles away, dead or lived someone else's existence. I, too, have wanted to throw in the towel and run like hell. I also, have had a hard time believing that even God could fix what was ailing me. When you find your life in this state GET BACK INTO THE WORD.... Go to the one who made you, knows you in and out, knows what to do about EVERYTHING GOOD AND BAD in your life and is waiting for you to come to Him... JUST DO IT!!!
You think, yeah yeah mom... you know nothing of how it really is...But kids, believe it or not I know alot more than you think I do, and the Almighty God DOES have the answers to your problems. You can't possibly surprise God with what is happening... He knew it before it happened. You are just so used to not going to Him anymore, you don't really believe He can solve things in your life. I am not making this up... I have lived it...
I will never stop praying for you my kids, I will not give up trying to help you even if you are mad at me for trying to set you straight... I don't have much experience parenting adult kids but I intend to get it now. Stand back and watch me screw up, but remember I am acting out of the love and pain in my heart.