Yes, we raised him to be able to go out on his own. Yes, I am proud of him and I know he will do well. I know God will care for him and loves him more than I. And this is my 5th kiddo to leave home... but this one is really leaving. As in going far away... sigh... I have to keep reminding myself to shake out of it, for goodness sake... he isn't dead, just going to basic training, geez.
And I have so much I want to get done... TONS... When I feel low I get the urge to simplify my life even more. And you know what that means: everyone's stuff is in danger! of being decluttered. I have six new kids to get ready for: rooms to revamp, clothes to organize, schedules and lists and menus and on and on...
I also have lots of garden stuff to get started. We are adding another garden this year, totally devoted to beans for drying: black beans, red beans and kidney beans. And we are getting pigs in May. And 100 meat chickens at the end of May. And then we are starting our own flock of layers this year. And the garage is coming down to put up a barn (garage needs replacing, two birds with one stone here). And I would like to take a more serious look at getting our own milk cow. And it is 70 degrees today (!!) and I have a mountain of clothes to hang out on the clothesline (I know! This is the earliest EVER to hang out clothes I think).
Trouble is, I feel down and immobilized... just don't feel like standing up and making the effort to get something done. What I want to do is sit out on the deck with a book and soak up the vitamin D, mainlined from the sun... for a month... or longer... sigh... I have a feeling I am going to have a hard time if/when I ever have an empty nest.
4 comments:
good thing there won't be an empty nest for a long while! Hang in there, I can only omagine how much you miss him already.
Wow, that is an awful lot of work to be doing on a melancholy day. Myself, I'd probably just sleep all day and leave everything until tomorrow... but maybe that's why you have 20 kids and I don't. :)
If you get your own cow, remember, commercial milk is enriched in vitamin D, so you might have to supplement it once you get the cow.
Do you know when the new kids are coming home? I'm really looking forward to "meeting" them!
Thinking of you and Josh and the whole family today.
((hugs))
Just found your blog and so look forward to reading more. I actually saw your post on the yahoo hair & skincare adoption group ... saw your interesting email address ... and though, "Wonder if she has a blog by the same name?"
I am the Mama of a Dozen kids ... but you certainly are about to have me beat. :)
I have 6 that have "flown the nest" and 5 of those have flown very far away at different times over the years. I've had kids doing ministry work in Haiti, Africa, India, Bangladesh, Germany, Jordan, and Costa Rica, and Argentina. My 21 y.o. daughter has been in Argentina for 2 years already, and is now in a serious relationship with a godly young Argentine man. So, she will probably be there very long term.
My eldest son spent 4.5 years in the U.S. Army ... serving 2.5 years in Iraq. So, I have done the "Army Mom" thing. If you ever want someone to talk to about it ... let me know.
We would LOVE to have a log home. Oh my! Our dream. We are praying right now about the purchase of a 20 acre farm, and we do want cows and chickens (along with starting a small commercial Blueberry Farm).
Hope you'll pop over to my blog and say, "Hello". Look forward to getting to know you.
Blessings,
Laurel :)
Congratulations to your soldier. I'm an Army mom to 2 soldiers. Both enlisted the same year, both left our town the same week to their new bases taking 5 of the grandkids with them :( It hasn't been quite a year yet but I'm coping....thankful I still have 6 kids at home and one that lives locally with the other 4 grandkids. My oldest son is back at Ft. Benning for Ranger school. He's loving it! Anyway.... I miss them. Here is a prayer/poem I saw a couple of weeks ago I thought I'd share with you:
Dear Lord, Could you spare some guardian angels to give me peace of mind as my children wander from me and stretch the ties that bind? You have heavenly legions, Father. Could You send me just a few to guide my eager youngsters as I give them, Lord, to You? Oh thank You, thank You, Father, and, oh my glad heart sings. I'm certain that just now I heard the swish of passings wings!
May God be with you as you rejoice for your son and may God be with your son has he serves our great nation!
Yours in Christ (we are Lutheran too :)
Vickie
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